Corporation
I don't know how to say
how I feel politely, or poetically, or without
the jugular and collapse of the immediate
heart, so tonight, I won't say anything at
all. Just stare out the window at our
stunned little writhe. Hold back the
strongest urge to knock out a few of the
capitol's most critical walls, replace its
fiber optic cables with lightning bugs,
replace the investment bankers all with
bunker busters. I lock eyes with the
capitol's bright and empty rooms and admit
that, sometimes, deep in my affluent,
American cells, I miss my body carved to
projectile. I miss trebuchet shoulders and
knuckles flaked to arrowheads, miss my
hands massive and molded from molten to
the bolts of ballistas. I miss blackjack and
cudgel and quarterstaff and flintlock. I miss
pummel and pike and I am not proud of
this. I know it's not a healthy feeling. I try
to un-arm, to un-cock. I try to practice my
breathing. I try The Master Cleanse, The
Stationary Bike, The Bikram Sweat, The
Contortion Stretch, The Vegan Meatloaf,
The Nightly, Scorching Bath, The Leafy
Greens and Venom Television, The Self-
Mutilation of a Winter's Run, but we can
only cleanse our bodies so much before we
realize it's not our bodies that need
detoxing.
(2012)